Has it been since May 5?

Sorry to disappoint my loyal blog fan(s)....

I can't believe it has been so long since my last blog. I guess I have taken some time to learn, to grasp and to ponder more of life and what it has to offer us.

Here are some things that I have learned.

Life doesn't get any better than this. If we are happy, and we are not encountering pain, it merely means that we are not truly living. We are not on the tracks of the train of life. Instead, we have derailed and are driving to disaster. Happiness is good. But life is not only the search to be happy (just ask Will Smith). Life is rather the encountering and maybe even seeking pain and hardship so that we might truly live.

Do I do that? No. But I want to.

Life also forces us to take some risks. I don't like to take risks unless they are guaranteed or they are worth the risk. So much of our lives are built around only taking risks that are not worth it and are way too safe.

Live a little. Take some risks. Be a friend, don't just demand friendship. Love someone who won't love you back. Give up something you love....just to not hold it too much.

Life is a funny thing. I am sitting here tonight at my computer. The light is low, my wife is asleep. I have the choice to think about all of the amazing things that I have. Everything that I enjoy. But I also have the ability to dwell on the things that I don't have. Who I want to be. Who that movie star portrays...

I usually choose the opposite. Why?

Why do I believe the lies. Why do I derail off the train tracks of pain and life and the richness of joy and living.

I don't know.

But I continue to search for the answers...